Random Venting

As the end of April is vastly approaching, I can't help but think about the many things in my work life that has been bothering me lately. I feel as though I can reach out to co-workers and they seem to be very understanding of my frustrations but those frustrations only go so far. Call me crazy but working for a vacation company and not taking a vacation?!!?! I need help.

So, this month our team was approached with this "new way" of doing things. I work for a team that services an elite few individuals and now upper management is telling us the way we've been doing things is the incorrect way and must go back to the drawing board. I understand of doing things the policies and procedures way but not screwing over some of your best workers in the mean time. It isn't the teams fault that the last few years management has turned a blind eye and the "newbies" of the team haven't been aware we've been doing things wrong......for awhile! Our elite individuals have become upset because now everything is policy. No one wants to budge any longer. No one wants to pick up slack. I feel as though my thoughts and considerations are being turned on deaf ears.

I explained to management that no matter how we change our policy our elite individuals will find a way around it and basically be lying about the policies and procedures they are making us follow. It affects the team, it will affect me and my money. I DON'T LIKE THAT. Like my husband says, "Babe just follow the rules and stay under the radar. Once you get your BA you can do any damn thing you want!" I agree 100%.

Which brings me to my next venting sessions:

I have put in my time and showed that I am damn good at what I do. But, because I don't kiss ass and refuse to suck up to anyone, I am left in the shadows of individuals that don't deserve the positions they are receiving. I am left to follow those individuals that just want that step up and that will take those hand-outs they were given. I will put in my years and gain nothing but the most knowledge I can from my position because once I do have my BA and have years of seniority, why wouldn't I be able to get the position I wanted? Don't get me wrong I love my company but I feel as though when the management team says, "I've got your back!" It's nothing but wasted promises and broken dreams. I can count on my daughter flushing the toilet before counting on a well deserved promotion or even a good job from anyone in management. 

Starting from the beginning:

A few months ago I expressed interest in a specific position at my company to my supervisor. It required something our company calls----Leadership Bench. I wasn't interested in leadership bench to become a supervisor because that's not necessarily the direction I wish to go AT THIS POINT IN TIME. It required it for the position because eventually you will be required to have the duties of basically a supervisor. My passion is learning and development. I love teaching individuals and having them get the most knowledge possible about this position and what better person to do it? Well, during this session with my supervisor I was basically told leaders are born not made!!! IMMEDIATE STOP. What? So, basically I was told I lack the leadership qualities that people look for. It doesn't matter that I'm in school for management and supervision or that I've made straight A's, that I've been to numerous leadership conferences with my college, or that I will be presenting a research paper to the University of Oxford this summer-----NO! None of that hard work counts for anything when it comes to the company. Well talk about a slap in the face. So, I've kept my head down and stayed under the radar until this past month when this new policy has started effecting my ranking which in turn effects my pay. When I first joined this company I felt like my first supervisor had my back for whatever I needed her for. She bent over backwards for her team and I feel as though I made a mistake by taking this position all because I wanted to get myself KNOWN and work my way up the corporate ladder. I was given a raise but that raise was immediately taken away because I spend over $200/month on gas to get back and fourth to the office as well as $80/month on tolls since everywhere in Florida has toll roads. 


I will put in my time and do my duties of my job as I am given. But, once May 2015 comes around and I receive my BA degree in Business Management  I will be putting in resumes at other departments and if I am held back I will find another position elsewhere that will value what I can bring to the table.

I will also remember that when I decide to move to a management position whichever company I work for, I sure as hell will not run my management skills the way I am seeing them be run. It's a complete screw up if you ask me. Kiss ass get handed the position of your dream. No, we need to go back to the days when you worked for what you got and didn't receive hand-outs. Just my opinion. I will also keep in mind that when I am in a position of management to treat my co-workers as individuals and help them succeed in any way possible!